Matchmaker matchmaker make me a match

Yes, dating in the paganworld is an absolute nightmare. It is a very small pond I am fishing in and most good fish have gone already. So should I settle with less? NO WAY. But still, wouldn't it be nice to wake up next to someone that understands my believes and knows where I am coming from.

The dating issue came up in an online female pagan group. I found out I am really not the only one with this problem. We just can't find the single pagan men.... where are they!

In our discussion we found that it would be a great idea to have some kind of pagan matchmaking service to help a lot of us single ladies in the process. So, who knows any single guys (looking in all age groups) because there are a lot of lovely ladies looking for that special one to make a connection with!

And for me, well, I just wait my time and hope to find someone to love :).

My valentine's resolution

As you probably know, I am a headcovering pagan with a single status. And around valentine's day that sucks big time. I would love to have a significant other but unfortunately I still haven't found the One for me.

I have been trying the online dating world for some time now. I have gone on some dates and have chatted like crazy to maybe find Him. Until this week I discovered my mentality has changed big times. Before I was always looking for the One and willing others to like me or to love me. I would say things to please the other but always trying to keep it close to myself. I was afraid for rejection even from online guys I have never met!

Well that changed one week ago. I noticed guys always asked the same first or second question: "what do you do for a living?". As having a great career or even a fascinating job will make you a better person (o, believe me, I have an awesome job that not many can call theirs). Like having a steady income is something that is required before you start dating. Like dating is more about stability and money then it is about love.

I decided that when I got asked that question, I just simply wouldn't answer it as it has no value in the dating process. I really can't care if people online think I am a bitch but I can't see why my job is more important then I am.

So my valentine's resolution is: not acting like I am someone else and just say what I like and dislike instead of honeymouthing and not answering that stupid question anymore!!!

I know my strong and weak spots and people just need to love me as I am!

What to do with my time

Getting my wisdom tooth removed gives me some time to reflect and to think about what I want to do. I don't do so good with too much time on my hands. So what to do instead of feeling sorry and laying on my cough.

Yup, start blogging again. Yesterday I saw a movie about blogging and it got me thinking. I have a lot of interesting stuff to say. It's not like my life is completely standard. Me being a headcovering pagan with a lovely bunny baby, being single in the Netherlands. Yup, I can do so much worse. So from now one I will try to write at least once a month on this blog.

So for my first entry:

This year us dutchies don't have a winter. It has only been freezing one night! So, where are the ice giants?

The ice giants are (as the Edda says) the responsible party when it comes to cold in the winter. The story goes that Donar/Thor has to hit them with his hammer to get them to leave in a huge battle to get life started again. It's called breaking the back of winter. But this year winter hasn't started yet. I don't know why, it can be global warming or just a strange thing this year. Also because it hasn't been this cold in years and years in America. Are those two intertwined? Maybe the Ice giants have all decided to visit America.

I am so not complaining as I don't like extreme colds or hots. I love the rainy days so today I am extra blessed.

On another note, I am coming to the USA in a couple of years and I am starting a new blog about my progress going over there, The idea is that me and a good friend are going to take a 3 month roadtrip through the country and visit all the places we have seen on television and to meet some lovely people we both know. Most of them come from the headcovering community although not all cover :).

And yes, this rambling has been made possible by my good friend codeine ;).

Observing me

it has been a while since I last posted on my blog. It is just because so much (or so little) has happened in my life that I have't found the energy to write here about it. It all started at Ostara and now, finally I can write about my transformation inside and out. For starters, I am no longer a victim.

I was a victim by myself kept hostige in a body that wasn't mine. Because I had body issues that great it stopped me from being myself and doing what I wanted to do. It cost me a lot of years to except that it is just me and it won't change doing nothing. So yes, I finally started bellydancing, going to friends, going to festivals, flirt etc. I even plan to go on 2!! tours with student orchestra's who asked ME to go with them.

On the inside a lot changed. I am not scared anymore to be myself. I found my own power and know my strengths as well as my weaknessess (it took me a burn-out to get there). I changed directions in my religious observance and now I am able to PROUDLY say that Asatru is my path at the moment (no one knows what will change ;)). And although that has been a big step I am a sister of CiL wich means that I am a headcovering pagan too (more about the why in another post). I started covering at Ostara and haven't taken of the veil ever since and yes, that makes me stronger and proud of myself.

I will be writing more on my experiences as a headcovering heathen in a christian dominated world (yes, that can be funny :D). So more to come soon!!!

Youp is coming home!

As spring is approaching so is the weather improving. It is getting warm over here with a lot of sunlight. It has been a while that I wrote something on my blog but I have some exciting news!

My little bunny is coming home! Yesterday my parents and I went and visited the breeder. It was on a childfarm and it was really nice. Next to the french lobsided rabbits they also had goats, pigs, cows, sheeps and horses. Because of the beautifull weather there were a lot of babies. We went to see the chocolate brown rabbits and I just fell in love all over again! Mom and dad are just beautifull. When I came they gave me a little bunny to cuddle and to keep me occupied because it was really busy. It was such a sweety!! I just kept sitting on my lap and putting his head in my jacket. We arranged that I can come and get Youp in two weeks so he is really coming home!

Other animal news, those darn pigeons have totally distroyed my balcony!! Me and my friend tried to clean it wednesday but it is not working. It is to much shit to clean up. I hope I can clean it in a couple of weeks when it gets warmer because it needs to be done with a brush and soap. I still hope that the mess will just magically disappear......

So that's my animal news for now!!!

First bunny picture!!

This morning I got an email from the bunnyfarm with a beautifull picture of the three little ones. One died in the last week due to the extreem cold over here. So here it is!!

Aren't they sweet???? They are still so helpless but I know they will grow fast and get really really big :D. I am really happy that those three survived the cold outside. I can't wait to meet my new roommate but it won't be another 8 weeks before I will be able to cuddle him.

Cold and bunnies

It has been almost a week that I last updated my blog. That's why I decided to do one on the weather (it is such a neutral topic). It has been FREEZING COLD this week. It hasn't been this cold for the last 20 years. The dutch are skating again and thinking about the "Elfstedentocht" (A skatingtour held on natural ice in Friesland across eleven cities). The last time we had one is almost 15 years ago (yes, it is really rear). The ice needs to be very thick for such a tour. How cold it is? -20 C at night and -6 C during the day. I am not able to keep my house warm anymore so I mostly stay in the living room with warm clothing. I hope it won't last for long because I would go to the Efteling (a dutch attraction park) next saturday.

The biggest problem in the Netherlands with cold and especially snow is that the public transportation isn't functioning anymore. At the first flocks of snow the trains start to break down and the traincompany decides to take out some trains. This means that to travel you have to wait around 45 minutes to get in a train that is really to full. So no, I am not really sure how to get to work tomorrow or at what time ;).

There is also some coldstress on the bunny front. My little 6 day old bunny is outside with his mother and we don't know if the little one will survive :(. His mother is being really good and keeping them warm but nature has his own ways where people don't have influence on. I hope it will be alright :(.

So I hope Ostara will hurry up a little bit and Donar will kill some Ice-Giants so the cold will break and spring will come soon!